Ick...

Do you ever have those days where you feel icky but not because your sick? Kind of like your soul is feeling icky?

Today is one of those days.

I was repeatedly attacked on a forum on Ravelry (which shall remain nameless) for my incorrect assumptions about something and was basically told that I was a horrible person and that I'm an attention-seeker. I was also told that I must feel superior or jealous. The result was me spending a fair amount of time crying for things people were saying to me and I finally left the group entirely. It was one of my two safe havens on Ravelry where I felt like people might actually understand me. I was wrong. There is no safe haven anymore. This is why I spend so much time by myself. I feel like there is no place anywhere in the entire world where I can actually be myself. So, I'll spend time alone. I'd rather be alone than have to put on an act for everyone.

This may be why I don't have many friends, too.

I feel so icky.

Of course, maybe it's another bout of depression or PMS or loneliness.......whatever. I may not be posting that often for the next few weeks while I try to figure out everything going on in my little corner of the world. I'll try to keep up with my Self-Imposed Year of Projects updates but I don't expect much knitting to be going on either...it just doesn't feel like something safe to be doing anymore.

Hrm. Maybe it is depression. Oh well.